Lots of things to discuss, or at least I think there will be. First thing is college: I've been accepted to Fanshawe and Humber. I am so excited about the fact that I've actually been offered to some of the courses that I've applied for. Though with the others I have to do portfolio submissions and personal statements, I'm still optimistic about it.

Second thing is family. It's been a little bit tense between me and mother.  She has been badgering me about dropping out of school to get a job, since I already have my high school diploma. I still think that I should stay and try to balance school and work (which is probably something I have to do when I'm in college), but she thinks that its gonna show her more responsiblity if I started working full-time to help pay for tution. It's so bloody obivous that to me that I have to at least help pay for tution, but why say that the courses that I have for the upcoming semester are a waste of time for me, while you switched my courses from last semester WITHOUT my permission? She's even theartened to not help pay for anything if I don't drop out.

And she doesn't stop there. She has been pretty much telling me how bad of a friend I am, because I don't want to complicate things for my friend Kris. She is moving to Belleville in the middle of Febuary to work and go to school, and will be living with her real mother since she has been living in foster care for a few years. Kris has visited her mother various times for long amounts of time and has enjoyed it. She even told me and showed pictures of her times there. I figured that as a friend, I should respect Kris' choice and support it, no matter what that choice. I wouldn't think it would be fair to oppose her, and pretty much force her to choose to stay here.

And for that, I'm a terrible friend. My mom isn't realizing that I'm pretty much losing my best friend.

And nobody in my family is siding with me. I think that is the worst thing about this whole situation, is that I pretty much have no moral support for anything I choose for my life right now. I'm like crying right now. I feeling really selfish right now and for that I apologize.